firefly
This has been a really rough year for me professionally. Well, it seems rough, but compared to the majority of the world I am very blessed indeed. Last summer I left a job that paid well but made me unhappy. I loved my coworkers and the clients but something just wasn't right. I took a pay-cut to do a job that I thought would be great. Turns out that it wasn't quite right either. Even the funders didn't think that it was a job worth doing so the project was dismantled. Finally after 2 months of waiting for new funding I'm working. Sort of. I'm only working part time with always the hint that maybe next week I might be able to work full time.
I had a friend that did my numerology and she suggested that I shouldn't make any big changes but I did anyway. And it seems like I keep making mistakes. Or at least choices that don't make me any happier, job-wise. Sometimes my brain can only focus on the things that I've lost rather than the experiences that I've had that have been lovely. I've taken an extraordinary pay-cut which makes me concerned about The Big Trip (more on that at a later date). I've left a beautiful, huge office for not even a desk of my own where I can keep my tea and lotion. I feel like I've gone from being a respected professional to someone who's opinion doesn't count because I'm only there part time anyway. And I'm complaining and I dislike it. I guess I'm just trying to figure out how to deal with life now and let go of worry. And I'm also really afraid that I'm the kind of person who is always discontented. Any hints or advice on how not to be that girl?
Anyways, I'll be back to being bright and shiny tomorrow...
blazer, lacy top, jeans: Ricki's
belt: Silpada
watches & flower pin: were my Grandmothers
necklace: gift, from Spain
shoes: Madden Girl from Maurice's
silly face: emotional instability
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| None of them work. I still don't know what time it is |
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| Me and my little sister |
Today I'm thankful that I don't have to work until 10:30. There is a bright side to part time.
Comments
As for your jobs/career/what have you... you are not one to be discontented no matter what. The energy you give off just isn't that girl. You're young and you haven't found your niche yet... and that's okay. You WILL get there! There is no timer ticking away until it's too late... each new job and experience will give you more to offer that beautiful and smile-inducing career that you are on your way to. Srsly.
At 28 I'm on my fourth job since graduating college in 2005, and it's the first one where I am not an assistant. But it took awhile and I had to be patient with myself. And all those years of admin experience help to make me the bomb at my current job (and honestly led me in this direction, with some creativity on my part) and also helped me to be truly grateful to the peeps who help me out on the regular admin-wise.
And this job won't be forever, and sometimes it's annoying, but it's going in the right direction.
Good things are ahead for you, my dear. Great things, in fact!
I feel like i've been lost forever and I wonder when I'll stop getting by and find something i love.
I also look at working just as trading time for money. I don't have a career though. My husband has a career and he loves it so I talk him into fighting for things more. Making people hear him.
A quote I once read was "Sometimes in our pursuit of happiness we need to just stop and be happy" You are moving in the right direction you just need to recognize the things that do make you happy. In the meantime try to enjoy the chaos, let go, grasp loosely, release firmly, because something good is going to come out of it. You just have to stick with it. I wish I could show you the path but then you wouldn't be able to have the adventure.
Second of all, cut yourself some slack. You DO make an effort to be positive every single day and you're allowed to feel some resentment and discontent every now and then. It's okay. Discontent is what spurs us on to improvement.
That being said...if you can fix it, fix it. If you can't, don't dwell on it.
And above all, be who you are whether they respect you or not. You're fabulous. Always.
Also, you look fabulous. I love me some jeans with a jacket.
Second of all - Sometimes there are tough times that have to pass before something better happens. I am certainly not immune to those, but I do find it easier if I've got a plan of what happens next, whether it's a firm plan of: "I will talk to someone on Tuesday about another opportunity" or "I would like to work in a place like that in a couple years".
Part of the still searching part is because, like you, I feel like I'm not content or I don't know where I fit. I think we'll both get there when we've tried a lot more other stuff that we like or not like. I just wish that time would get there sooner :)
♥ laura
the blog of worldly delights
I fight against discontentment all the time. The thing that works best for me is to count my blessings & be thankful. I love that you do that in each of your blog posts - it's inspiring.
I also keep lists & make plans all the time - I don't always follow through on all my plans, but it helps to be looking forward & feel like I am making changes.
All the best for you! And Firefly rocks!